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On another note, it is one badass storm raging right now in Waterloo.
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My Personality
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| You very rarely feel depressed and are usually in a good frame of mind, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important, however you do not particularly like helping other people. Requests for help feel like an imposition on your time. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans. |
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Hmm. I'm not sure how I feel about the bit about regarding intellectual exercises as a waste of time, and I should hope I don't treat requests for help as an imposition. The panic, confusion and helplessness under stress/pressure is pretty spot on though, as well as the plan making.
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when we say the words and sign our names
if they take it away again someday
this beautiful thing won't change
city hall . vienna teng
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tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up, where do I start
'cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
when it all falls apart . the veronicas
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At some ungodly hour in the morning, I woke up, because my fan was too fucking loud - it is at some minuscule broken tilt so that the blades constantly hit the side of the casing. I had to turn it off - when it feels like 30 degrees out. After that, I couldn't get back to sleep. I tossed and turned and at some point achieved some decent amount of snooze - until at 5 in the morning, some fucking assholes decide that yeah, they need to be out at 5 in the morning, laughing their heads off, outside my open window. FUCK.
And then to top it the fuck off, I keep hearing this odd tap/flapping as I'm lying in bed. I, in my sleep-addled mind, think maybe it's the wood in my furniture expanding and contracting. Yeah, right. I finally put on my glasses, and there's this giant fucking grey/brown moth flapping around my room - hitting the walls with its wings. WHAT. THE. FUCK. Being the poor pathetic girl I am, I kill it with a shoe while uttering a couple high pitched girly shrieks. Especially that time when it falls on my window-sill and I think it's dead, but then it twitches and tries to move. Yeah, good, high pitched squeal there.
Now it is 6:35 in the morning, I'm far too fucking wired to get back to sleep, and I have a midterm to write in three and a half hours. Fuck.
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Nevertheless, last night, I decided I'd just read for two hours before I slept (I ended up reading for three), and then this morning I came home from the gym, wanting to read just another chapter or two, and ended up finishing the entire book some three hours later. I'm rather enamored of it, most of all the characters, Rook especially.
That's not to say that I loved it unreservedly; it hasn't trumped my favourite books out of their place (and from here onward I will quite certainly be mentioning spoilery bits). I found it disconcertingly similar to Melusine by Sarah Monette, both in key plot devices and most certainly in writing style - I've always found first person harder to enjoy, all the more so when the reader is thrust into some event without any backstory. I did however, enjoy Havemercy more than Melusine, mostly having to do with the characters being more lovable and much less frustrating, and I suppose that the influence can't be so surprising, given as I read Melusine per the recommendation of Jaida Jones in the first place.
Another thing that bothered me was that as the story progressed, Hal's character became less self possessed, turning too much for my tastes, into something of a damsel in distress whose sole purpose was to pine over his beloved (which it assuredly was not, only once in a while it did feel that way). Which is why I suppose that Rook and Roy were my favourite, simply being of a stronger personality.
I did rather enjoy the plot twist revelation, despite it ringing similar to Melusine again - more simply because it meant more interaction with Rook, and seeing the subtle changes in his behaviour.
One thing I found was that the main portion of the plot moved a little too quickly for me, or perhaps simply with too little descriptive, or narrative from certain characters (such as more insight from Roy himself of the symptoms of the illness). Nevertheless, I wholeheartedly enjoyed the climax battle of the story, even though it broke my heart to see the girls go down, as little as we were introduced to them - especially Havemercy, whose snarky, foul-mouthed behaviour I immediately adored.
All in all, the ending of the book left me quite satisfied, and the book packed a most delicious sort of emotional punch - I think I would have had a better time getting into the story were there less of the narrative-switching, and I would certainly enjoy a story revolving solely around the Dragon Corps (if pressed to say, I would have argued that Roy and Hal were not entirely necessary for the story). But I am quite happy with the book and I'm looking much forward to the sequel - though perhaps I need a new bookcase first...
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